Will Find The Way

I 'll walk you through

And we 'll find the way out

the pain and dispair will fade away

and you will mend it in stout

I promise , you 'll survive it

though you are distraught

Breath in & open your eyes

show me the smile that I missed

talk to me, let hear your voice

the words are chocking you, I know it is hard

you are making me proud

acting strong, holding it togather

but I know that you are sad

Hang in there

I promise , it won't take long

before you find the way

to where you belong

Completing the Marathon ' almost '

WoooooHooooooo..4th year has finished !!

ooo :S did I mention that I was a 4th year medical student ..& I 'm officially now a 5th year medical STUDENT ! ..

anyhow , back to the WooooHooo ! .. so after a loooong stressing period of time Finally our grades were out & we ( I mean I ) passed Al7amd le Allah. How the hell did I pass ?? don't even ask :S .. I wish I could celebrate the end of my 4th year in this college & say that WoooHoo from the heart, but I couldn't. I wish I could post a status on FB to congratulate myself ,my friends , & my whole batch with the end of this pretty tough year, but I couldn't.

see , I 'm not one of those dorky NERDS o_O (never was & never ever will be ) those who calculate their progress in life only by counting the marks they have collected ! even if they will manage to flush away all the knowladge they had in toilet after the exams. How do I know that I'm not a NERD ? mmmm well, i never complained (not by any mean !) about a mark i 've ever had before ,no matter who horrible it was . I even used (almost all the time) to come out of exams only sincerly wishing that I pass even with one mark above the pass mark , & whenever I do , I go WoooooooooooooooooHooooooooooooooooooo !! Well this time I did pass without WooooooooHoooooooooooooo or even a wooo .

4 YEARS in med school ,& god damn ,I never got a single mark (not even one !!) that could represent even 40 or 50 % of the potentials which I believe that I have , not even close to that.

4 YEARS which I 've through away , spent them in both emotional & mental instability ( I gues if you still believe that I was even awake while writing this post , I 'm here telling you that I 'm NOT :P )

4 YEARS come oooooon !!! what have I learned ? how many opportunities have I wasted ? how many chances of success & achievments have I ruined ? maybe as much as the hair that is covering your head [ if you are bold (';') well you can skip counting ]

this is what I see when people say : ooh you are in 5th year , u know what is it like , it is like someone who went to a 42 Km long Marathon which is supposed to finish in 3 days , & at end of the 2nd day he/she had (thankfully) accomplished 40 meters of the 42 Km . WOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!

I swear I 'm not depressed niether frustrated . And I 'm not a person who looks to the empty half of the glass ,at least not all the time. In fact, I haven't been feeling stable the way I do recently since years , though I still can't see more than that ,& to the very 1st time in my life , I 'm not happy that I ( successfully !) stipped into a new academic year.

at the end, my 2nd post is out . may it 's not boaring as the 1st one nor it is funny or creative. it was a slap on the face i wanted to have on puplic so I remember that I 'm waaaaaaay so much better then where I 'm right now. & if i wasted 4 years of my life in crap !! I 'm not welling to waste whatever is left of my life in less than What Allah has created me to accomplish, in less than what I believe I can do


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The Opening

Well ,here it is , the first post is out..end of the day I had to post something. Why am I that late ? I gues because i exaghusted myself already trying to make it special ,or maybe perfect..too bad i feel so deprived of both thoughts & emtions to write down a good peace to start my blog with it.

Anyhow, my style in writing probably is going to be a combination of diaries and poetry, depending the mood :D ..to all friends whom wanted me to start a blog & to all those whom i was following before I start my own blog, to you i write my first BOARING post ( :D kidding )..

I wish the next post is going to be more joyful , inspirational , or mybe just stupid & funny ;) ..wish me luck anway

see you then :)