Homeless

Forgive me ..

forgive the languor in me that could grapple on you no more that could withstand it no longer..

Against my well I was deported, tempestuously we were just parted..

I will be back one day ,I promise ..

Maybe I have no clue where to go but I know by heart the way back to you ..

Maybe I seem to be lost and lonely..

left uncovered for the eyes of strangers to glimpse me with pitty ..

for the hunger to erode my soul ..

for the frost to solidify what is still left out of me..

but non of that matters !!

Because despite it all..

I know that one day I will be caged in you..

guarded by your walls..

warm inside your heart..

and one day I will be back , I will be home ...

Long journey that would be ..

The one I will be taking to to grow stronger ..

to find myself to find my way back to you..

I will come back standing on my feet , not crowling ..

stronger than ever ,determinant like never ,reaching out for you ..

I will be home one day..

As people might see .. homeless I might be ..

But do not call me delusional if I would say..

That the distanse between us will grow shorter..

That one day I will be Home ..

weak no longer.. scared no longer..And homeless no longer

Random Letters part I

Here I leave my letters to you wrapped with my sincer feelings .. For I might die but here my love to you will be untill forever comes ....

" Looked through the window watching the sun go down,disappear within the eaves of buildings .. I couldn't help wondering .. how long the darkness of night could separate us .. how long would it be before I see u raise again ..

It is getting darker around here .. no wonder I am shivering ,cold ,and scared .. However, I believe that the voices that I hear , and the ghosts that I see are only my overpass to your light , to your warmth ...

Do not worry about me .. I will survive until the morning comes .. so until then ,bye bye my Sun ..... " on The 26th of May 2010

" May your eyes rest peacefully .. may your wholesome soul find its conduit .. may your sincer passion alienate your despair .. and the pure love in your heart salve your own anguish .. may hope be your companion and faith be your guardian .. and may I Love you till the soul depart me ... " on The 23rd of March 2010

" My heart is shivering ,my hands are shaking ,and my breaths are taken away .. I just cannot believe that you are back .. cannot believe that you are here .. I 'm terrified of losing you again ,and I cannot help it nor can I take it ..

Please my dear take those fears away .. please reassure that pitiable heart of mine that you are here .. that you will never let go of me .. that I won't be in this spiteful world on my own again .. I missed you " on The 6th of May 2010

" watching the timepiace going tick-tock .. the time is passing as every hour is like an entire decade .. I cannot stop thinking about you without my fears & trepidations getting more and more immense .. how on earth can I let those memories go .. or be able to let it just flow ! It 's breaking my heart that you had to go ..

I stood there frozen in place , wathched yoy walk away .. I wondered to myself if I am going to see you ever again " on The 10th of april 2010

" I have been wondering , what is the thing that takes me always back to you when I escape .. steals me from myself to your arms ! is it that enchanting look of yours , or that warmth wrapped in your words , is it my dream that you held, or my love that you fairly & prettily kept .. I really don't know , yet I love that wonder you took me to " on The 19 of March 2010

" When you smiled ... all the pain and disappointments were gone .. all my fears vanished as they never existed .. for that smile brought the life to my withered eyes , the peace to my torn soul , and the pleasure to my broken heart ... that smile taught me what beauty is , what warmth is , what security is .. I want that smile to accompany me every single day of my life .. and NO it is not Only a smile ! it is THE smile " on The 24th of February 2010

Devoted

To the Eyes that were kept up late everynight watching over me..

To the Arms that had encompassed my soul, embraced my interior, and confound me to my core..

To the Heart that has been pumping life to my deceased cold body..

To the Ground that had always upheld my being...

To the Shelter that concealed me from the night,safeguarded me from the darkness..

Devoted To You I am .. To You